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For if the butterfly effect is real, then a piece of dust from China can land in America, right at my house!

This week, an unusual winter-like storm impacts the Eastern seaboard of the United States. Also, China is betting that the US won't launch a nuclear strike against North Korea. Source:  http://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/china-bets-trump-wont-resort-to-strike-against-north-korea/ar-AAp14Gb?li=BBmkt5R&ocid=spartanntp http://www.msn.com/en-us/weather/topstories/rare-noreaster-like-storm-sparks-flooding-rescues/ar-AAp1r7T?li=BBmkt5R&ocid=spartanntp

At times I feel as though my life will end If the world would end Then my life would begin Happiness cannot be redeemed in a lifetime Despair will always outweigh everything else Spirits try to make me redeem my happiness... So they bring me indescribable euphoria But the euphoria is outweighed by sadness Optimism becomes useless A different world A different set of rules No gamble, no risk There is no punishment after death Only reincarnation At least that is my wish currently As I'm aching to escape my life A life full of phsychological torment It's a battlefield between me and reality And I've already lost many times I've died in a psychological sense many times over My physical death has practically already occurred Because my mind is a black hole Taking everything in with it

At times, I feel as though I'm going to die. That's how stressed out I am so much, combined with despair. I also have feelings of anguish which linger all of my life.

http://hisz.rsoe.hu/alertmap/database/?pageid=event_summary&edis_id=FF-20170726-59190-USA is a summary of the event that I thought I might have had a premonition about. Utah doesn't use daylight savings time. My premonition can be found at https://theworldindespair.blogspot.com/2017/07/blog-post_49.html .

Most of us most likely know about the effect of weather and seasons upon mood. But have you ever considered the possibility that the opposite is true?! Do Thoughts have some involvement in the creation or maybe just the workings of weather? Does the weather respond in some way to our thoughts? And does the weather influence how we think? For example, change in atmospheric temperature affect our mind's thought processes in some way? The butterfly effect If I'm staring at a cumulus cloud, it might turn into a cumulonimbus. However, if I was not there to stare at it, then would that cloud remain a cumulus?! Or might that cumulonimbus otherwise grow a foot taller would I not be staring at it then were I staring at it? This is the riddle of the butterfly effect. Interestingly enough, people who study topics relative to weather and climate, have discovered the incredible phenomenon known as teleconnections. I think that very few people besides maybe meteorologists or climate scient...

I honestly wish that everything could be over so that I don't have to have such ominous feelings come past me. I feel as though I am in the water and can't see shore. I wish that this could not be the only life that exists, the life that we live here on Earth. I feel the worst is going to happen to me. Is there a way that I can escape everything? No matter how much happiness and great feelings come with life, concern and terror will always outweigh the great feeling, and that's why I fantasize about leaving Earth. I'm not talking about death. Instead, this is about escaping all experience of life all just to get away from ominous feeling. I can't afford to have any ominous feeling in my mind, because that means that something is seriously wrong, so wrong that it's irreversible.

I want a girlfriend but at the same time I want to be alone. What to do? Sure, it's fun to go out with someone to various places, but then you have less time for yourself. What should I do?

I'm terrified sometimes. I want to say "please help me" but nothing will change. In fact, sometimes I feel like I'm drowning in water and can't see shore. I feel this way in my mind and I can't stop the feeling no matter what. Nothing can possibly stop the feeling because it goes beyond me. Not only that, but also because any help will be passive. I think that a main cause is boredom. I feel as if I've wasted my life away, everyday. I feel as though the worst is going to happen and that I will be punished. Something needs to save me, something besides people. I wouldn't be writing this if it weren't true. Something must be wrong, but it's not something that comes from life itself, or the world. It's as though I don't know, but it makes me wish that everything was over so I could know if I'm safe or not. Where does wasted time go, if it can't be redeemed during this life? Will I be safe in say, 150 years? As long as I live my lif...

Check out this blog. https://theworldindespair.blogspot.com/ . Perplexing topics are sometimes included Do we all see colors the same way?, Does the future exist in an additional dimension?, etc.

Hurry boy, she's waiting there for you.

Life is so bland, I can't take it anymore. I refuse. It's so monotonous and boring that it's painful. For instance, when I drive to work, I spend about 2 hours in the day looking at what is basically SHIT. I pretty much stare at the same trees, bushes, buildings, etc. every day. And I also look at many cars just to be careful. At work, I look at about a hundred garments each day, each one is pretty much the same. I want my life to change, and I can change but I don't know if my life can. I hate driving. People are assholes, though that is definitely an understatement, in fact they make me feel extremely unpleasant. Being flipped off feels literally evil, because I didn't do anything that bad. Sure, life can be full of happiness and greatness, but the everyday boredom and monotony of life seems enough to outweigh happiness and all that is good about life. I hate it. I want out. When I'm at home, I look at the same SHIT everyday, and it's not even stimulating....

I'm frightened whenever my dad's on the phone with someone who I don't know who it is. His tone of voice brings back scary memories. He pretty much terrorizes me not just then but also often when he talks to me. His tone of voice often seems ominous to me, and is sometimes quite critical, getting furious if you don't turn around to face him or respond. In fact, he is sometimes so critical to me that's when it feels as though I've been kicked in the crotch and the pain will only go away if I respond. Living with my dad; it's just like pain itself, except that it's psychological. I'm wondering how to overcome psychological pain. I try to accept physical pain, such as when I eat chili peppers. I have long wondered whether or not overcoming physical pain is a gateway to conquering physical pain. Sometimes I feel as though I've been kicked in the crotch; I often feel emotionally drained; It's like a lack of adrenaline or some other chemical that...

I really want to go on vacation but my dad wants to go in a Toyota pickup. The problem with that is that I don't want to go in the Toyota; the Toyota seems to bring bad luck and is therefore unpleasant for me to ride in. He doesn't want to take the Buick because it's supposedly unreliable and were we to go on vacation, we'd probably be driving for about 14 hours one way. So taking the Rendezvous is a gamble but I still don't want to go in the Toyota because of how uncomfortable it is, despite that, unlike the Buick, it has air conditioning. Just goes to show how much I dislike the Toyota. Renting a car is too expensive, and we'd be staying on vacation for 3 or 4 days. If I don't go on vacation soon, it will be very bad. Maybe I should wait until autumn and then we would fly to Nova Scotia so I can finally take some great photos.

This is about my life in America. I was born and raised in the southern region of Michigan. I grew up in a middle class family. I have had a desire to be either a mechanical engineer or artist, for quite a while. I've also spent much of my time studying geography, as well as photography, as a hobby. I'm not exceptionally social; that is, I don't talk to strangers much though when I do, the conversation goes well without a problem. I live pretty much in the country, about 2 miles away from the closest town, with a population of about 5,500 people or so. Much of my family was born and raised in Poland. although there are some very slight traces of non-polish foreign ancestry in the family. I currently work in the capital of Michigan, as a quality inspector of clothing, and I earn about $14 per hour, which is about the equivalent of what a lawyer in Poland would earn as of today. I think that there's more freedom in the US than in Poland, and it's different here, beca...

I'm done. I don't want this. I hate this shit

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