The Poem Of Despair; A Poem About My Life

At times I feel as though my life will end
If the world would end
Then my life would begin
Happiness cannot be redeemed in a lifetime
Despair will always outweigh everything else
Spirits try to make me redeem my happiness...
So they bring me indescribable euphoria
But the euphoria is outweighed by sadness
Optimism becomes useless
A different world
A different set of rules
No gamble, no risk
There is no punishment after death
Only reincarnation
At least that is my wish currently
As I'm aching to escape my life
A life full of phsychological torment
It's a battlefield between me and reality
And I've already lost many times
I've died in a psychological sense many times over
My physical death has practically already occurred
Because my mind is a black hole
Taking everything in with it

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